Tonight on Jake's Showcase https://youtube.com/JakesShowcase I have just released "Starting Chin Ups and Pull Ups Exercises Again" https://youtu.be/sjnl-6XASEA currently at 17 Views 5 Likes 0 Dislikes. It was one shot or take with all natural lighting.
Well there ya go. I told ya I'd have some more entertainment on tap. Now this is not wildly entertaining however it does not miss my sight that fans have been wanting workout videos for a long time but the truth is I haven't been working out....because my back has been sore. And I also know that much viewership is not for the quality of my workout almost the opposite, the irony. The irony that a little skinny dude like me is not afraid of talking about and trying to participate in getting fit.
Now this video was made about 5 weeks ago and that was one of the last days I continued to do this pattern I described here because my shoulder was hurting and I was told to rest it.
Nonetheless I wanted to not put it out right away but when the time was right. I still have about 3 videos in wait before I get back to some fresh stuff and really I haven't missed not making a video in over a week now knowing I have it ready.
The power of drawn out patience. It takes discipline, it takes dependability.
My real life is very not good right now and getting worse. Over the past 48 hours I have received 4 very bad pieces of information all trying to derail me. Mentally derail me. It was so bad earlier tonight I had the strongest mid evening urge to drink that I've had in over 2 years.
Really it's all been problems so easily solved with money. Nothing crazy, nothing unfixable, nothing utterly terrible rather I still have no idea how to financially sustain myself.
My car broke, my rent's past due with a howling landlord desperate to evict me in order to raise the rent, my job doesn't want me and my golden prospective job doesn't want me either. But me, I'm great.
Like think about it. What problem there does not get fixed with cash. If you have a little bit of money. Get a bit of food, have some smokes, some light driving in a old economy car, walk by the river, visit some friends and relatives see these are the things I do. Their not expensive.
But how do you sustain them, what do you do. Ok sure a job work but what if that's just not working out.
Ok well move.
Tonight that became a fresh new idea in the forefront as the wait for the good news approach evaporated.
This country doesn't want me. No one wants me.
I'm sad. I know I'm so gifted, but so unwanted and unuseful. I cant' do the type of work needed, and the type of work I can do is not here or I'm not wanted to do it. I'm just not in the right situation.
Albert Einstein said something like "If a fish judges its smartness by it's ability to climb a tree it will spend it's whole life believing it is stupid."
I don't know what is next. But I do plan on staying sober. I cannot hurt myself because somewhere deep inside me I believe the best part of my life is yet to come.
May the beauties that love me find me wherever I shall be.
Love me,
Have a Wonderful Day or Night Fans,
Jake Johnston jakesshowcase@gmail.com
sorry to hear about your troubles Jake. Dont go back to the Alcohol, it only works for a very short time and after your problems will get bigger, just work through it the best you can, life is a struggle sometimes, you need to be strong and fight it, but at the darkest hour the light is just behind it. how much money you need, maybe all that follow your channel should chip in. Peace from Sweden.
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