One More Thing To Give

Tonight on Jake's Showcase http://youtube.com/JakesShowcase my video "How to Date Barbie" http://youtu.be/WP4RNhuAuak is at 301 Views 11 Likes 2 Dislikes. I write much earlier tonight for no apparent reason.
The channel has slowed today and my usual upload to re-boost mentality is tempted to release, especially on a Saturday night, the video is ready. Sometimes when I hold off releases it's because I want my headliner to be "driven home" with maximum viewership but that's not the hold up here. Rather for the past three days I've had a "YouTube Block" similar to a "writer's block" and I like to usually have one video in the cue or at least in the brain ready to shoot and I haven't until this afternoon. If I release tonight I have to be ready for Wednesday and that puts pressure on me, I hate pressure. 
I have one more thing to give you. I want you to have it. But I have to see you to give it to you. I have to have reasonable access. My prior attempts are maybe a little outlandish and it must be easier. I do see your message in your actions. All your actions.
What I don't understand is your fascination. The reading, the dislikes, the visual tempting and untouchableness you do.
Yesterday was crazy I admit, I went from being happy in the day to being sad within minutes, you have such a way.
The art of tease, the art of torture, the art of rejection and longing....yes....you are the best.
But within it all the showgirl must love her audience ultimately, because without her audience, she's not a showgirl. No one to clap, no one idolize, no one to pay. What would you do if I did not love you so.
Yes, I have one more thing to give you and say. Hopefully soon, but really, the time doesn't matter, I will keep it until I see you. You know how to find me.
Have a Wonderful Day or Night Fans,
Jake Johnston jakesshowcase@gmail.com