Hired Only By The Desperate

Tonight on Jake's Showcase http://youtube.com/JakesShowcase my video "Why All Math Is Wrong - Mathematical Philosophy" https://youtu.be/vFaJXEYuhu0 currently at 292 Views 21 Likes 6 Dislikes. Better start then last weeks and I have to say possibly better received then I anticipated with currently 21-6 like to dislikes as I know that this video is somewhat out of the box thinking but for the most part I see the likes and dislikes currently as a opinion of me rather then the video quality or message.
I am currently down to 1 video left in inventory that I planned on releasing and have not run dry of ideas rather of energy as my full time job is draining and time consuming with the commute leaving little in my gas tank to create.
This week I made more money in sales then just twice my annual salary as I pick up the pace. I will not feel bad when I leave from this job as I have made them a boatload in the short time I've been there. They choose well to hire me. I did not get hired at the "real job" I recently discussed after all and it was a real kick in the cahuna's because my father worked there and I thought if anywhere I could get hired and have some validation it would be where he's worked for 35 years. Nope not Jake, we don't want to hire him. One of the smartest student's in the city, no, let's choose someone else. 
The truth is, is that I'm blackballed here in London. I'm too well known, very public, my story is out there. Hiring Jake for a real job or any job for that matter is like a whole undertaking for them it feels like here in London. I represent something here in the city, something a bit larger then "just another worker". I know this is true.
The only people who will hire me are the companies absolutely desperate for workers that show up. Like the company I work for now in St. Thomas. They need people so bad they're forcing overtime, even to those wet behind the ears. Why because the job don't pay and people leave. Since I found out on Tuesday I did not get hired I started looking for work again here in London. I had only looked 6 days before I got hired in my current role and I was desperate. I'm stuck now but not desperate and as soon as something is equivalent or higher I'll switch. It's too bad too because I'm good at this job but I can't get by on minimum wage, I'm still broke, still paycheck to paycheck, especially with the cost of driving out there.
I have the next two days off Friday or Saturday and hope to find a date. There's a big festival going on in the city center and it would be nice to be with someone. You know just like it would be everyday but especially walking around by myself at a fun music festival with thousands of people I want someone to be with. Someone to laugh with, someone to talk with, someone to hold hands with, someone to love someone to kiss. Who knows what or who this weekend will bring into my life but I know I'm open, I know I'm trying, I know I'm feeling a combination of the sorrow of life and the satisfaction of my ever growing success and ultimate happiness.
Love me.
Have a Wonderful Day or Night Fans
Jake Johnston jakesshowcase@gmail.com