Could I Be Right All Along

Tonight on Jake's Showcase http://youtube.com/JakesShowcase my video "Jobs I Can't Do" http://youtu.be/fhgydPaRsCc is at 193 Views 21 Likes 2 Dislikes.
Well the one dislike I know who that is....but the 2nd....newest beau? Mommy? Hmmm?
The video off to an excellent start, you can always tell with a blogging delay of a day or so. When the video or channel is super hot or well above average hot, I don't want to disturb the trend by writing. On Tumblr, and Google plus the additional posts buries the video which I want to be as accessible as possible.
You know I can't help but think how things are there, with her. But I sort feel like I already know. I know what's going on. Must be hard. But what can I do.
I just have to learn how to move forward. Super hard though.
My dating spree has cooled as the weather has. Zero dates this week. Not sure how it's going to be as the temperatures cool. Generally they say the mating season is in the spring and hibernation happens for winter. People I guess pretend not to be aligned to animals mating habits but I think we're more common then we think. So slim pickings may be in the near future.  
And you know I'll never know what the attraction was. The darkness I guess. Her darkness. So counter to my light ways.
Opposites attract. But in this case it was so opposite. Skulls. What? Me.
I hate all that stuff.
Yet it was right there. The magic, I knew was mutual. Or I thought it was. No, I knew it was.
Now the winds of change have happened. I see there's other opportunities and I know many more to come.
I'm a young handsome talented man with a heart of gold, personality and a story for history. 
But what I don't know is how and why something so right turned out so.....blank....and then nothing.
But there's something still, even without sight. I know it. 
Could there ever be hope? Will there ever be a second moment, second chance, second try? It wouldn't be a try it would be real and it would be the last because it would not fail, ever again.
Could I be right all this time. Sometimes when our guard comes down the truth comes out.
Drinking and drugs take our guard down. I've been there. 
Search for the truth once again because coffee, movies, walks and fun await. A life awaits. Love awaits.
Have Wonderful Day or Night Fans,
Jake Johnston jakesshowcase@gmail.com